I feel it in my head
It makes me want to tear my hair out
All my thoughts, all this thinking is swelling
At the brink of an explosion
I want to cry,
Cause maybe then all of this poison inside me
Will coming gushing out
I want a release
From all these thoughts
From all these things I feel
I just want to let go
I want to scream
I want to lie down and feel nothing
I want to be happy
I want to be free
Free from all these restraints
All these people around me
Limiting me, stopping me
Not letting me be
Writing used to be an escape
But these thoughts go far too fast to write
All these emotions flow right out
I cant control it anymore
I want to tell everyone what a nuicsance they are
That they’re the ones causing problems
They’re the cause of my despair
Crying makes me feel weak
But its sometimes the only way
Only way for my heart to release
All this pain, all the poison within me
Art cant hold it anymore
It used to make it go away
But now it just focuses it, bottles it away
My art saves my pain
Puts it in a jar, and stores is somewhere else
By luck I might forget it
But fate life reminds me everyday
I don’t want to go crazy
I don’t want to lose my mind
I don’t want to hurt anyone else
But I don’t know what to do with me
These thoughts and feelings are tearing me apart
God, I need your strength
God I need Your Way out
I’m getting tired
And insanity is a brink to freedom
Bleeding weakens the heart
And worldly venom can take the poison