Nothing

Even after all this time, I still cant escape you
I cringe at your name, shameful for what I feel
My heart clenches and aches, my senses reel
My entire being starts to shake and quiver
In pain and agony, my soul suffers
Yet I search for your face, your name your voice
I smile when I see you
Though I know you’ve moved on 
I stare long and hard
Praying somehow you’d hear my pleas
To ease this ache and come talk to me
I want to hear your words
Your voice of velvet rope
I want to see your face and take my hold
When a face so kin to yours crosses my path
I curse the thoughts that pass my mind
The same thoughts that fuel my choice
I flirt with the guy whose smiles just like you
I see your hair, your height your olive skin
In strangers that stare, that touch, that closes by
Your smell lingers in the air
Your voice in songs I hear
You’ve become a part of my existence
And to you I’m nothing